Sometimes I forget I have a livejournal. And even though it might not be read this is good for me so i can get everything im going through out. Well I did horrible on my report card and Cindys going to be pissed when she sees it. I have an F in oceanography *sighs* anyways someone said they could chang my grades for me even though im not sure if i want them to. I mean if they can honestlly change my F in gym to look like a b then i dont mind at all. As long as it looks realistic. I guesss i just dont want to get in trouble i have plans tonight with my gf to go to the mall. And either way im screwed. Anywyas Im working tomorrow and Sunday 10-6 and then i have a week off from work and school. At least my parents are gone for the week so im not technically in trouble untill after this coming week. But then again i could be stressing over nothing...i mean i have been through a lot with Adrea leaving for Texas and seeing Chelsea and this whole mom wrote me a note and wants me to call her has also been stressful i mean what do i say after three years "hey mom happy belated easter?" i mean i cant just call adn me like "hey its britt" i need a plan...i proablly wont even call....im not sure....well ill write again hopefully sooner than later...hopefully i remember livejournal....

okay guys
Just got back from NY..I noticed how I never write here anymore so the chances of anyone reading this proablly wont happen. But anyways I went to NY and saw my sister for the 1st time in 4 yrs....God shes so pretty....Anyways I really had a lot of fun I just wish idk i could of stayed longer..I hve a lot going for me right now though...anyways it was like a real life chick flick it was good we both neeeded it...I even got ana crying towards the end lol...anyways peace out...

well todays my 18th birthday Im trying to desifer positives from negatives. i can buy ciggs and i can buy scratch off tickets and I can vote. negatives: my parents can kick me out, if i runaway there no going back. Idk i guess im just scared cause i make stupid mistakes when im mad... Well w.e. Peace out Breeleigh18

My new years went good. I had my bf over for the party it was so fun I think I love him. IK its a strong word and the only reason im not growing to attached is becuase i have plans to move soon and idk what will happen with us. Also I dont want to grow so attached we break up....

I havent eaten anything in 3 days. Lifes so horrible right now. I need to take contorl. Between everyday drama with my mom and bf I have school to worry about and everything else. I cant do it my best friend is also pregnant now and wants and abortion which ive always been against anyone who knows me knows that. W.e. on to bed.

well i got my laptop for christmas and the sims pet game to go with it and i hung out with my boyfriend all day I think after us fighting it made us closer but anyways i felt bad because one of my friends dodnt get anything for christmas and i got everything i wanted. and now im sleeping at my sister house which is fun Anyways it was a great day all in all.
TTYL
BreeLeigh18

okay so Ive decided that I really really am starting to hate guys. IDK its really confusing like my bf is all like i want to be with you 24/7 and im just like wtf were noit married. Like seriouslly my best friend and her bf fight constantlly I dont want to get to that point. the only time that Kruiser and I fight is becuase I dont see him everyday. IDK in my opinion if I cant have my space its not worth it thats just who I am. Besides whats he going to do when I go se Ana for that whole week or when I get a job? Then hes like oh well all my other gfs break up with me when they dont see me and i was like yeah not me. Besides he broke up with Bethany his last gf so idk what hes talking about that was his fault. Well Peace out. Breeleigh18

I cut myself for the first time tonight since I ran away. I sont know what Im going to do..I mean yeah I cut down on smoking and mabey thats the reason but idk honestlly....W.e. today was moms birthday and I cried a lot but IDK like always life goes on...Breeleigh

okay so tomorrows moms birthday and its REALLY depressing me. I cant believe its been four years since Ive seen her. In my opinion if she wanted to she would of called me. I dont know I just I miss her and Im sorry I cant see her and I wish I didnt care as much but I do. I guess thats life though I mean honestlly I was born in hell but w.e. You live then die.
Breeleigh18

Ok so today one of my friends is like "its my moms birthday" and i was like okay so why arent you with her cause they were with me and they were like no i hate my mom and i flipped out so bad yeah at least they have a fucking mom some of us dont jesus christ talk about fucking retarded w.e. So yeah and Sabrinas mad at me most likely cause i want to se ana but idc cause i invited her w.e. screw the world Im going to bed Breeleigh